Day two Part three

Phyll home from work, Sarah here, going to have family dinner, which I cooked, happy but quite drunk, hell its on 5pm, Chatted to Charli which was nice, swimming Sunday, so gotta be sober, really. Also got Ben round saturday night, will I be different than the last 13 years of his life, at moment proberely not

Day two part two

So after the 1st post today about yesterday, I am sitting here waiting for the letter which I was told will take a week, so here its gonna be same old same old. Its liking booking a ticket for a holiday and you gotta wait till the day arrives, I feel like this now, i've done the BIG step, but i just now want to get on with it, 'cause if it takes to long, I know I might go back on my word to me and to my wife and to my kids its been 20 years coming this point in my life. I just hope it happens

Day two well sort of.....

Well me and Phyll went to TADs yesterday, well it was a 1pm apointment, sitting down in the waiting room, looking at posters of warnings about dealing around the clinic will not be tollerated, hey, I just trying to get of the drink, i don't inject. It hit me I am here with my wife, im a druggy, but my drug i can buy over a counter, not down a back street so it was ok up until now? was it? A nice lady nurse well it said on her badge mental health worker to us to an interview room. Mental health worker I just drink im not a skitso or anything? We sat down, and the forms were worked through, although Phyll was there, which I wanted her to be there, the answers I gave to her questions were answered for the first time with no, hiding or lying. So I was told I would have to visit every day to take the course of drugs and then will have to be suppervised at home during the chemical detox period, but that is just the start, its gonna take at least 6 months to get this crap out of my system. After all these years 'The Amber Necker' has really crept up on me. That 1st assement really lifted a sort of weight of my mind, so in the now sun me and Phyll walked home, passing an offlicience to buy 8 cans, 'cause I can't give up yet. Now I sit on day 2 before I get the letter for the date of the start of my detox, at 2.15pm on my 5th can, but the difference now I have to record each and everyone and then write my feelings down on a form. Thats when I get a support worker I will have to discuss it with him/her with the drugs i gotta take to. Well this is my 1st ever blog, it might not be that good, but i want to do this, please keep an eye out for more.